Because...

Because I love you.
Because I miss you.
Because I don't want you to forget me.
To remember me.
Well, don't remember and leave me in your head.
Make me a reality, better than a fantasy.
But I feel it's too late.
I feel it is over.
Second chances? Maybe?
I don't feel it.
And I'm usually right about my feelings.
It's hard to breathe at night, because that's when I think of you the most.
I feel an emptiness  throws him.
It's at the point where I'm bragging "Please".
I am dating again. I am seeing other people.
But it's not the same.
They don't have the right face.
Nor the right height.
The right smile, nor the right voice.
Nothing about them equals him.
Equals you.
My heart is tore to pieces.
Can't think straight.
I tell myself I'm fine.
It's always easier to be distracted during the day.
But as soon as night falls, I become one with my thoughts.
A busy brain. A busy mind.
Not thinking of anything else but you.

Maybe marry rich?

Maybe marry rich so this pretty little mama can stay home with the kids.
To get pretty, to go out side to save the world.
But how can I save the world without the hard work?
School is feeling overwhelming to me because it's becoming hard to sit and focus.
I waited my whole life to attend college.
College is not the hard part.
It's making time and leaving behind the things that take away from my time.
Letting go of people that kill my time.
Even the people that I daydream about.
Tomorrow, I have two test,
Yet I don't feel ready for none.
Ok,  my son just walked into the room.
I'm feeling a lot better.

What's bothering me?

She is full of anger,  it's getting old.
You know? I want to wear great clothes.
I want to be married.
I want more kids.
I want to be around Mike.
To do arts and crafts without being worried about getting the carpet dirty.
I feel overwhelm and I don't want anyone to bother me.
I want a shop.
I want to do my homework in peace.
I need my mind to be at peace.
That's all.

I just feel silly

I just feel silly now that I'm with out you.
You know that feeling when you feel you like someone more then they like you?
I think about you everyday.
You're doing so much better then I am at this.
You know, the pretenting that I am not crazy about you.
Pretenting that I don't wait for your call back just to get disappointed.
Pretenting that I'm not deeply in love with you.
Freaking that I'm alright that I can't held you.
Liking the fact that I can't kiss you.
Only dreaming of kissing your lips again.
Wishing I was in your arms.
Hoping that you were here with me.
But knowing you don't want to be.
Now sitting here alone again.
Still in love with you.
With the feeling still new in my heart.
It won't leave me alone.
It still hangs in there.
For the moment we are back together.
But then I feel silly.
Because I know I am the only one that feels that way.
How do I know?
From the moment you told me "I'm not in love with you"
Those hurtful words.
Why am I still sitting on those?
Why can't I just let it go?
I had a great day.
Many to be exact.
But I just can't shake it.
I'm strong in the morning but weak at night.
It's that feeling when someone doesn't love you back
And you're forced to let them go.
For the sake of your own sanity.
I miss making love.
I miss holding hands.
I miss the physical part.
Now I'm lucky if I caught his attention.
I hate this feeling.
Of feeling hopeless.
Hopelessly in love.
Some how I always end up on this side of the table.
It's never the winning side.
The side of happiness.
With the lover. The friend.
The one who is the happiness to see you.
Becasue I am the happiest to see them.
I just want to text him saying "I'm thinking of you"
But can I?
Or is sharing feelings not alone?
Why do I always end up alone?

Practice

With everything is my life adding to my emotional stress I ask myself
"What is the underlining thing that is brothering my heart?". Wait on God and the thing you want will come 10x better!

Destiny's Child- I'm A survivor (with pics)

Thank  you all for your support over these hard couple of years. NOW LETS PARTY!!!!!!!!!!

10 Great Bible Scriptures for Comfort.

Jeremiah 29:11 - Comforting Scripture- God has a plan for your future

'For I know the plans that I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.

Isaiah 41:10 - Scripture about giving all your problems to God

'Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.'

Revelation 21:4 - God will wipe away every tear!

and He shall wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there shall no longer be any death; there shall no longer be any mourning, or crying, or pain; the first things have passed away."

Philippians 4:6-8- Comfort Scripture on Anxiety

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, let your mind dwell on these things.

Matthew 11:28-30 - Great Bible Verse for comfort in the hands of Jesus

"Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. "Take My yoke upon you, and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you shall find rest for your souls. "For My yoke is easy, and My load is light."

Zephaniah 3:17 - Bible Scripture about God's love

"The LORD your God is in your midst, A victorious warrior. He will exult over you with joy, He will be quiet in His love, He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy.

Jeremiah 17:7-8 - Great Comforting Scripture Verse on Trust

"Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD And whose trust is the LORD. "For he will be like a tree planted by the water, That extends its roots by a stream And will not fear when the heat comes; But its leaves will be green, And it will not be anxious in a year of drought Nor cease to yield fruit.

Psalm 23:4 - Comfort even as we approach death

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil; for Thou art with me; Thy rod and Thy staff, they comfort me.

Colossians 3:2-4 - Comforting Scripture about Heaven

Set your mind on the things above, not on the things that are on earth. For you have died and your life is hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is our life, is revealed, then you also will be revealed with Him in glory.

Isaiah 40:29 - Bible Verse to give us Strength

He gives strength to the weary, And to him who lacks might He increases power.

I pray these Bible Scriptures were comforting to you today .